The reality of recovering from multiple organ failure is pretty grim. Constant exhaustion, anxiety, panic attacks and of course the weekly check ups and appointments. Whilst I'm grateful to be alive, I'm not gonna lie, waking up from being intubated with an oxygen helmet, having to spend 7 days with an oxygen mask and wires hooked up to your body because your body could no longer function by itself was pretty traumatic.
As was spending four days in multiple organ failure without pain relief or proper monitoring. I'm still recovering from it all and it sucks.
I know I'm alive and that's great but although I look ok from the outside, my organs are still healing. I had a procedure in January that was pretty traumatic; it didn't work, I have to have it again in April. I've been feeling pretty miserable and sorry for myself. (Please excuse my self indulgent whinging).
However, as always, Mummy and Daddy came to the rescue and booked us into a lovely place called Trygonos in Snowden. (I highly recommend it to anyone that comes to stay with Dad or takes up his courses). We've been there before and it's bliss. Balm for the mind and soul. It was the first time I'd ventured away from Telford since October. It felt good to leave my moaning and self pity behind and concentrate on the beauty and splendor of North Wales and ukuleles.
The beautiful lake in the grounds of Trygonos.
Foothills of Snowden.
The girls decided to re-enact the story of Abraham and Isaac. (As you do),
My monkey.
Experiments in slate.....love that my boy is actually voluntarily mark making!!
Oh the beauty and the splendor, and of course, my beauties, my reason for living, my world.
At the hotel we played some good old fashioned board games.
As it was science week we took the kids to the science day at Bangor Uni. It was right up my kids street, especially Izzy.
Nanah made an amazing lunch which we ate at the workshop.
We helped grandpa and put the elves to work on the production line.
Some therapy was in order - working with my hands with my daddy. When I am with this man I am inspired. I look at his suffering and the way he so nobly and humbly accepts the limitations he is now faced with and I give myself a mental kick up the backside. I can get through this, yes it sucks, my body functions more like that of a 60 year old at the moment, but I am blessed. I still have all my limbs, my family who love me. I have all I need. And I will get better eventually ( I'm told four more years, but I'm so impatient).
The master at work.
Man, I love my family. I'm so grateful to have such loving parents who set the example of always working hard, doing the best you can, sharing what you have with others and unconditional love. I aspire to be like them one day.